Jackie: Monday morning, day 4

I have a chronic pain thing in my left abdomen just below the lowest ribs. There is something in there, a pinched nerve or a spot of crohn's, they aren't really sure. But it's part of the reason I overeat: for some reason, if it hurts and I pig out, the pain stops. I believe that eating unkinks a certain spot that tends to spasm. Well, with my stomach seriously empty, that spot HURTS. I'm going to have to get back on valium to relax it. Hope it doesn't relax my resolve as well. We all know the body tries to trick us into eating ("If you don't feed me right now, I'm going to make you faint!"), but that's not it. I've had this most of my life. But it might be aggravated by the empty gut. OW. Feels like a constant foot cramp in my side.

I haven't heard a word about Ling and Lee in days...seems really odd. Maybe N. Korea is too focused on its dying leader to worry about them.